Stupidity

There comes a point in your life that when you look back you realize your own stupidity. That point has come for me.
In my previous pregnancies I didn't really care for myself. After the first child, the child/ren were the primary focus. During my pregnancies I didn't eat well, didn't get the rest I needed, and I didn't follow my doctor's instructions. I made excuses for all of these and now I know that I put my children at risk for so many health problems. Stupidity!
In my previous relationships I wasn't open and honest about who I was. I somehow expected them to figure me out. I never gave any of those relationships the chance they deserved including the one with the father of my four kids. I'm not taking all the blame for what was wrong in that relationship but, I do believe I own a fair share and by doing what I did I failed my children. I didn't give that relationship a fair shot and it was the one that held the most importance in their lives. Stupidity!
I am sure that in another twenty years or so I will look back and see my stupidity again. Hopefully, I will have made different mistakes and ones that don't have such an impact on others.