RAWR....

Do you ever feel like you are being sucked into the mind of a teenager? I walk around the house and in my head I have this tape playing "Fuck this...Fuck that, it doesn't matter." I hear that crap from my kids all the time and I think maybe...just maybe they have successfully switched me over to their side. I am tired of the battles for them to clean up after themselves. Really what's the point. Less effort is put in when I just do it myself.
I am just so tired of the fighting and bickering that it takes to get them to do anything. I usually hear how I am the only person in the world who believes that way. I guess that makes me pretty unique and special huh?
Youngest daughter says I'm the only parent in the world who gets mad and thinks its a big deal when my child isn't where their suppose to be. I look around and see all these kids waundering the street and I think maybe she's right.

Right now money is tight. I was handed the packet for the Disney trip which is going to cost $869 plus another two for extras. First payment due on Tuesday! No time to plan out or budget for it. That always pisses me off. They just expect because we live here we must have money laying around. We actually put all of our extra money into our house and since they keep raising the taxes $6000+ a year we will never have free money.
I would ask bio dad here but, that is just a waste of time. When I asked for help with oldest hearing aid ($2000) nothing happened. We just have to tough it out and make the sacrifices. I am growing bitter that it always us that gives things up for the kids.

I know I am hormonal right now and that is contributing to these feelings but, I really want to just scream. I want to crawl in a hole and stop being the mom of teenager girls (they are the ones that clash with me.) I JUST WANT SOME PEACE.