Close call

We spent the night in the ER. Around 8pm Hubby states that he has a tightness in his chest and it has been going on for over a week! Last night was different because it just wouldn't go away. I couldn't just let it go and told him I wanted to go in and have it checked out. All the tests came back normal. No sign of a heart attack. I hope though that it put a little scare in him.

I told him I don't want to be a single mom. I didn't agree to get pregnant so that I could raise this baby without him. I think he gets it because with our family histories it is very possible that either one of us could have heart disease. My mother passed when she was 41 only six years from now. His mother passed when she was 53. Its a very scary thought but, I am taking steps to ensure that my heart remains healthy. I don't plan on leaving this child without a mother. I won't willingly put myself at risk for a heart attack.

Its just so frustrating that he waited as long as he did to say anything and he would have sat there all night rationalizing the pain.

I told him it was time to have a serious discussion about diet, exercise, and monitoring of his health. I don't want to become his nagging wife but, this scares me. I really don't want to be a single mom. I don't want to share pictures with my child and explain that daddy can't be here.

And if you saw my other four totally freak out last night you would understand they can't lose him either. He has been so much to this family...it would be so hard to hold our life together. Everything would change and I would be so lost.

I kept thinking...I am 11 weeks pregnant. This can't happen. But, it could and the doctor let him know it was a real possibility. He has so many risk factors!