As the world turns....

I have been very grateful that the drama with the psycho woman is gone. It has been peaceful, at least on that front, since the babies adoption.
My youngest daughter is still struggling in her relationship. And the custody issues still haven't been resolved. That is frustrating since I have done everything to help the two of them. Plus, she has a suspicious mole that needs to be looked at but, the only people who are concerned about it are me and her. I live 11 hours away and she can't drive so, getting her to the doctor is a challenge. I think I a may just send money for a taxi.
I have finally found a place for my little one to spend 4 hours a week while I go have some free time. That has been enjoyable. Shopping for clothes without a child in tow was marvelous!I actually got to try things on instead of pulling them from the rack and praying I guessed right. I actually have clothes that fit my body type.
Now, if I could just get some motivation to lose my butt. I would say weight but, really everything else isn't so out of sync. Just my ghetto booty!
I have had some scares this past few weeks. I was taken to the emergency room for chest pains. They couldn't rule out a heart attack but, said that it didn't appear that I had any damage or it was really minimal. I know that I don't ever want to experience that again. I was trying to put my toddler in the car when it hit and I just kept thinking "don't let go of him." I was so afraid of him taking off into the street. At the same time, I was so nauseated I was heaving and my chest was clamped down.
I have a stress test later this week. I am hoping it turns out okay. I did make a decision to give up the cigarettes. I really felt in that moment I was cheating my child. I was making decisions that were unhealthy and shortening my life when I made a commitment to be there for him. So, it has been 8 days since my last cigarette.
I am going to make other changes as well. Like taking some "me time." Help to alleviate some of the stresses in my life.
My back continues to be an issue. I hurt it lifting the little one out of his carseat. Looks like another epi injection this time but, surgery is in my future. I am just trying to hold it off for another year. My sister is having hers next month and I am suppose to take care of her while she heals.
I know it seems like a lot of crap but, really my life is pretty good. I am doing great in my college courses. I have really awesome kids and my youngest makes me laugh and smile everyday. I don't have to worry about income because my hubby is awesome! My father and his wife are always there for me and I have a great sister that I get to share time with. I really am blessed even in my soap opera lifestyle.