Finally...

Things finally seem to be on the right path. The X got a job interview and hired. Which shows a lot to his children. It tells them that he is willing to do what it takes to help himself and that he is worth something. Its pretty easy to get sucked down a hole and not see a way out. I threw him the ladder and the kids were so happy he took it. I hope things start going better for him.
Youngest daughter is broken up with her X. That is a good thing. She smiles again. Unfortunately, she has a lot of work ahead of her to make her little family whole again. I hope it makes her stronger and doesn't break her.
Oldest is doing well. She is enjoying just being able to stay at home and being a mother. That is what she has wanted to do her entire life. Its nice to see that happen for her.
Oldest son has a job interview. His first and he turned 18. It is time for him to get out in the world and work. Hopefully, it will provide him some direction.
Middle son is pretty lazy these days. At least I can say there really is no major issues going on with him.
Youngest son makes me smile and laugh everyday. Life is pretty good right now. I hope it stays this way. I can use a break. It would be a great change of pace.
I have 5 classes until I finish my degree. I am so ready to be done. I am tired of accounting classes. Which could be a bad sign since that is my career choice. Really I just want to sit behind a desk and do payroll. I don't even want a job right now. I just want the choice if I need it.
Hubby is working a lot. Traveling all the time. It gets harder all the time. Little one misses him so much when he leaves. This will be my driving force to return to work. Just to give my husband a choice to stay close to home. We can live on so much less if we needed to. I can't possibly make his income but, I can provide enough to support us with what we need.

Grr...

I am just tired. Tired of feeling like I have to keep everyone together. Tired of feeling like I am the only one fighting for what is right. Tired of the people who really should be fighting are to damn lazy to give a shit.
I just want to slap some motivation into them. How hard is it to go to work? How hard is it to fight for your child? If it was me they wouldn't be able to hold me back. I would never give up, never allow my child to think I quit on them. It just pisses me off that I feel alone with that feeling. No one else seems to be driven and I am having to push them to do anything.
Which really isn't that effective. Then I just feel like I am not only failing them but, their child.
I have to let go of some of this. It is extremely hard to do but, I am powerless over the situation. I can't make them do what they need to and I don't see them doing it until they have no choice.
Really wish people fucking listened!