2010

It feels just like 2009! Just a few days later. Thought about making New Year's resolutions but, really what is the point. I'm never good at keeping them. Lose weight would be on the top and well until things are worked out medical wise that is a wasted resolution. Stay off of cigarettes! Plan to and have been. Its a daily struggle but, its been awhile since I had one.
I plan to live for today. My bloodwork can back all funky. Who knows what that means. It could mean the devil has returned and I will be facing more chemo. Or it could mean nothing and this fear is for nothing. I haven't told anyone much. I know I would see the fear in my husbands face and honestly, I can't bare that right now.
I have my own fear of leaving my kids and my little one not even remembering his Mommy. Enough of that. It only makes my heart ache. Time will tell.